To quote Charlotte.....

It's a day a half later

And still radio silence

I'm 33 freakin' years old

I don't have time to play games!

To quote Charlotte from Sex and the city

'Where is he already?'

But seriously folks 

It doesn't look like he's going to text back

I think this ship may have sailed

I can either suck it up

And move on to the next available tradesman 

Or bite the bullet

And text him myself 

Either option is not very appealing 

I have a draft of a text written 

I've been so close to sending it

But something keeps stopping me

So I am going with my gut feeling 

And holding back 

I just can't figure out what happened 

I mean 

We were texting back and forth 

And as soon as I mentioned going for coffee

It's like he seized up and froze

Or maybe he thought

'F**ck this for a game of soldiers, I'm out!'

Maybe I was too interested

Or not interested enough

Maybe he's seeing other girls

Maybe he's afraid of enclosed spaces that serve coffee

Maybe he's allergic to coffee

Maybe there's been a plumbing emergency 

And him and all his plumber friends have been called away on an extremely important job

The possibilities are endless

I mean

I don't even care where we go now

We could go bird watching

Or train spotting 

Or hang gliding

In really not fussy anymore 

You know

It really wasn't easy for me to put myself out there 

And actually show interest in this guy

For the past decade

My addiction and ED have been holding me hostage

And boys were the very last thing on my mind

I was in a kind of anorexia enforced celibacy 

And I was fine with that 

I mean you don't miss what you don't have right?

So to actually engage with a member of the opposite sex is a monumental step for me

(I almost wrote a member of the opposite species, but last time I checked men were still the same species as us ladies right?)

I don't know girlies 

I am at a loss 

Maybe I should just cut my losses

Or just text him

I haven't decided yet 

Thank you for all your support at this difficult yet exciting time

It means the world 

You seem to be divided between texting him back it not

With just a little more suggesting that I text him back 

I guess I will see how today pans out 

And whatever happens

I will as ever keep you posted....